TO LOVE MYSELF MORE WHEN I REACH 34.

It was never an easy journey of my 33 years. I always take the wrong decisions, I always worry, I always want to go back, restart and just forget about everything.

I am always disappointed with how I carry myself, with how I let myself be treated unfairly by others. Maybe because I always think that Karma will always avenge me. But no. Maybe in my world, karma can be bribed, karma is blind and karma is unfair.

Yesterday I had mini-cries (around 6, i think) from morning to evening. paranoia is eating up my brain, clouding up my judgement, strengthening my unreasonable heart, empowering the drama queen inside me. what is wrong, netchaii?

COUNT THE BLESSINGS.

before i drown with my weak soul and result in a very awkward suicide, the good netchaii in me wants to look back and count the blessings. Lets see.

Just My 2 Cents

hindi ka naman sisigawan kung magaling ka. pupuriin ka pa kung magaling ka talaga. kung wala ka palang talent, bakit ka nagpadala sa girlfriend mo at umextra ka? tapos magagalit ka at magdedemand ng apology dahil nasigawan ka? 

Hindi lahat ng tao bigla ka na lang mumurahin just because ito na ang industriya. may mga rason ang mga bagay bagay. its just that sumalang ka sa gera na wala kang sandata. diba unfair naman sa production yun? hindi lang naman puro paganda at puro artista at puro glamour ang industriyang ito. people work hard just to provide quality entertainment. totoo talagang this industry is not for the weak, actually susubukan ka pa nya how far you can go. 

Kaya kung inakala mong madali lang mag extra, nagkakamali ka. dapat alam mo na yan para tinanggihan mo na ang pag-extra in the first place. at huwag mong iexpect na uupuan ka at mag heart to heart talk kayo kung bakit di mo magawa-gawa ang eksena. this industry doesn't have the luxury of time. mabilis lahat ng nangyayari kaya kung gusto mo ng respeto, dapat inalam at nirespeto mo din ang mundong pinasok mo.